In Retrospect

Wallowing in time...
That brings back breaths
Of aeons past-
You prompt. You jolt.
I realize. And regret.
At the brilliant needlepoint
Of pain, accrued, in blue,
Sometimes red.
Bled cold with each pin-prick
In crafting this
Unforgiving image of my undoing,

If only there was time
To go back, before
Meeting unnamed destinies-
Time to undo that intricate
Weave, and weft, and warp
Of pain-
Undo, thread by painful
Thread, all my inconsistenties
My selfishnesses, thrust upon you-

A reprieve- at least, this day
I glimpse anew, that design
Of regret-
Knowing, absorbing,
Seeking and receiving
Your forgiveness.

Framed in acceptance,
Kept aside, with quietude-
Only to peek, when again
I may falter...
To guide, when I may lose
Myself, yet again,
Subjugated by insidious
Webs of duties that tie me down.

To seek strength, knowing
That I shall not, again,
Craft, of myself, another such
Mosaic of regret and pain.


25 September, 2011

Life... less

If life this be...
Endless yet tunnelled
Into a claustrophobic
Vortex of existence;

Am I?
Or better yet...

Will I ever be?

The cranium floods
With nerve ends tingling
Arcs over synapses
Tingling
Tingling...

Terrifying me.

Life, I must admit
Shall be
My undoing.





Online, on a silly line of thought :)
13 September, 2009

In the backseat...

Time there will always be

We know... :)

But now? Maybe not...

And so I take
from this world..

a little leaf
a little feather
a few drops of ink
a few cosy thoughts
warm memories...

Into hibernation, in my soul...
As I rest, and delve
Into the sea of consciousness...

To find myself... :)

I relinquish the wheel, for now,
And replenish the heart

For that is what matters, isn't it?

Finally?


31 May, 2009

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Impromptu, silly verse, just to say that I shall be going into hibernation for a while till time lends itself to me again, unconditionally :) If ever :)

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